Less Treble, More Bass

 I felt excruciatingly suicidal for the past few days.  I have had a weirdly good day today!  A lot of it had to do with meds, which my neuropsyc. adjusted this morning.  So that worked.  Now tomorrow I will resume tapering off the med I've been slowly working on breaking up with.  So tomorrow might not be quite as wonderful but hopefully nowhere near as bad as the past few days.

My friend was.... dismissed... from treatment group today.  This group has nothing to do with the meds I was just talking about; it's at a mental health/addiction place.  I'm only mental health; my friend was there for addiction.  She had two positive drug screens in a row and was given her walking papers.  She is a long list of unhappy adjectives.  I'm bummed for her, and will miss her TONS, but honestly that's on her.  The stuff she tested positive for were things she did admit to taking.  And the stuff she has been addicted to can easily kill her if she doesn't leave it alone.  So I can understand it from the point of refusing to casually sit by like it's okay for her to keep tripping up.  I'm sure it's hard to have to cut people off like that but I get it; I get why.  I hope she doesn't give up.  Hopefully she will hang in there and tomorrow she will see things more clearly.

I don't want to say something stupid to her so I'm not.  Maybe I should at least text her and ask how she's doing.  I think it's a lot harder to insult someone by asking a question than it is when you flop a stupid statement or platitude in front of them.

Best for tomorrow!